Roller Coasters

I don't like roller coasters. The G Force throws me off course, and I'm pretty sure my friends who made me sit the Corkscrew in Genting remembered the guilt they felt when they saw my reaction after, haha.

But I do enjoy a roller coaster ride when I need to scream. Because screaming in a shopping centre or in your room is not socially acceptable, screaming into a pillow lacks oomph.

Oh, and because Malaysia has no quiet safe wide green meadows for people to go to anyway.

Despite being scared of it, I know it will come to an end, and I guess that's what comfort me. That getting through the motions is worth it, because you get to release all you need to release and before you know it, you are outta it.

And life, which is often thought to be a roller coaster ride, there's no stop per se; at least till you're 6 feet under.

But well, life being somewhat fair, we do have breaks, we do have good days and bad days, we just have to go through the motions.

And actually live through it. Cry when you need to, be frustrated, laugh out loud.

Emotions are not a mistake, they are just part of you being human, a by product of our roller coaster ride.

It's how you react to it that determines whether it does end up to be too much a lesson at the end of the day.

There is evidence that crying can actually be useful for emotion regulation, I think it could be the fact that we face emotions (regardless positive or negative ones) that helps, as opposed to be in denial.

But if one cries all the god damn time over the same damn thing, we are quite damn sure it wouldn't help.

I mean, if the same damn thing makes you cry all the time, it kinda means it was never resolved no? Which kinda means it's high time to take a check and do something more practical about it.

Though there may be more tears in the process, what's a few buckets now compared to a life time of never ending buckets =)

It's lucky to be able to go through motions, fortunate to be human, so cry laugh scream giggle frown. Then deal with it.

On a totally unrelated note, I'm watching a random episode of Big Bang Theory which shows Leonard's mother coming to visit. HILLARIOUS. HAHA.